High School English teacher discusses high school curriculum and student issues
Have you ever stayed home from school because you were sick, really not feeling well? That’s what I have been doing for the past two days. So, why do I feel guilty? My mother thinks I am overly dedicated to my small rural school and my students. Isn’t that what a good teacher does, show dedication? I know that no one can engage my students like I can while reading Macbeth. No one can answer specific assignment questions but me. This year like every other year, I have built rapport with my students and even former students who are still in the building. For some of my students, their teacher is the only constant in their lives. Putting all of that in someone else’s hands kind of makes me uneasy. I care about my students and I also enjoy what I do. Wouldn’t that be considered dedication?
Guilt also arises when I think of the extra assignments I have had to assign due to my absence. Once I get back, period baskets will be over flowing with completed work, which will in turn need to be graded. I also look at my desk at home and see four piles of research papers that were turned in before break that need to be graded. When I am trying to rest, my mind is flooded with thoughts of what I need to attend to. Things like preparing my students for round two of the Regents Exam coming up in June and a final project for my seniors, how to reschedule debates for my Honors class. Sometimes I think it is easier to just go to work?!
The fact that these things are going through your mind illustrates your dedication. Taking care of your health should put you in a position where you feel that you are neglecting your students. What do you think they would want?
Keep up the good work!
Dan
Hang in there, many times I feel the same way, how should we manage our dedication and where does the balance come in when it comes to our own children and lives…mystified in as a second year employee at GCS!
You are so right. It is so much harder to stay home. I am doing my union duty and attending the RA and have been out since Wednesday. I know that what I’m doing is important. I’m giving a voice, be it a small one, to our students and teachers in Gowanda, and I take that responsibility very seriously. Fighting for students and teachers is why I’m involved in the union. But I still feel guilty missing class. I know that students are working on packets, have questions, and the only thing they can do is wait for my return. (Of course they could go see one of our other very qualified Math teachers, but we both know that won’t happen)
When I put my notice in for my absense, I requested a certified math teacher as my sub, but he wasn’t able to make it. I’m sure the person I have is doing a fine job with my students and with what I’ve provided for them, but they aren’t making the forward progress that they could have if I was able to get the certified sub I had requested.
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! I know exactly what you speak of! It is so hard to catch up with the work that comes from withdrawing but a day from work. But tis work that makes the world spin round. And you are reading Macbeth! What a simply splendid book! I remember when I first laid eyes on that novel. It was within Mrs. Fundles class. She had it on her table and I had taken it and begun to read the first few pages…well when she entered the room…you should have seen the shock on her face! Oh me oh my! Boy did I shock her. Such a confuzzled sole that Mrs. Fundle. Well she let me read the book and it has become my favorite of all!
I am so glad you have introduced it to the children! They must be having a blast with it!
*Hope and hugs* from Mary Poppins!
I must say that when i stay home i really missed not going to school. I think of all the back work i’ll have or that i missed something important in class. You’re a great teacher!! I must say i was a little upset when you weren’t in class. Ms. Merwin was an english teacher yes but she always took things WAY out of what was really going on. It was hard to pay attention. Lucky me i already knew what was going on =] You shouldn’t have worries, it was a point in time that really didn’t effect anyone.